Are you ok?

Are you ok?
Every time someone asks me that question "I say I'm fine thank you"but to be honest I'm not...
Do people really want to know how I feel when they ask "how are you?"or are just trying to be polite?
The next time the women across the road says to me"How are you?"I'll say to her,well I'm actually not very well at all,thank you. I'm feeling a bit depressed and lonely,pissed off at the world,envious of you,but not particulary envious at your husband for having to live with you...then I'll tell her about how I started a new job,meet lots of new people and about how I'm trying hard to pick myself up,And I'll tell her how it pisses me of when everybody says time is a healer,when at the same time they also say absence makes the heart grow fonder which really confuses me because that means that the longer he's gone the more I want him.
I'll tell her that nothing is healing at all,and every morning I wake up in my empty bed,because it feels like salt is being rubbed in those unhealing wounds.
And then I'll tell her how much I miss him,and about how worthless my life seems without him,how uninterested I am in getting on with things without him.
She'll probably say"oh,that's good"like she allways does.
What do you think?